I actually planned to post an entry sharing it’s already our sembreak yet it’s been like 2 weeks and nothing has been posted. hehe. now, sembreak’s almost over and surely, I’m gonna miss those long hours of sleep, those times when I would sleep at 5 to 6 in the morning, those moments when I would just use the computer the whole day; also experiencing a buffet-like home, and of course going out to unwind myself. Those were just some of the moments I felt carefree and that span of time allowed me to have some reflections too. hehe. Going to school’s almost over and so I wonder if I’ll give my best shot this coming semester. The real ‘me’ wasn’t totally portrayed in front of my teachers or classmates. I merely desired to pass my subjects though; no goals of becoming an excellent student. However, because some of my classmates are acclaimed achievers, can I be like them if I exert more effort and show interest on my course? Maybe or maybe not I could become like them. Should I give it a shot or will I be contented of what I’ve already attained right now..? I dunno…

Okay its 2:57am on my desktop clock and I’m still wide awake as usual. Currently listening to a song entitled ‘forever’ by Hillsongs United and the aura in my room suddenly shifted to my experience in YFC. Once I facilitated a youth camp and this song was sang truthfully. I cried. I was captured by the essence of many brothers and sisters singing altogether and the lyrics of the song were more than meaningful. That’s why. Oh well... just look up to the lyrics and listen to the melody of the song. It’s worth it!

I’m currently hooked to Special Force online which is relative to the Counter Strike game. I’m new to it so I have to play everyday to gain more experience for my chosen character. Anyhow, I enjoy playing with it because killing other members relieves my stress and it alleviates my negative emotions kept inside. Also, the fact that I’m practicing the defense mechanism termed displacement could be the sole reason why I like games as such. Special Force really helped me a lot. I feel at ease after I play; the game also makes me laugh the way how other members die or how everyone kills each other because it’s needed. So, if you also want to try this game… visit this site and let’s kill one another: http://sf.mygame.ph/

Today, I was absent in my major class. It’s always been like this every Saturday. Sometimes I hate it. Though I like it often to just let go of this subject and relax for quite some time. All my absences for this subject have accumulated to its limit so I guess I should control myself for me to pass this year. Whose fault is it anyway? I can’t wake up on my own sometimes and even with other people’s help, I can’t just open my eyes from their early morning blabbermouth. Anyway, my actions are part of my being a student. It’s unusual though if you ever encountered someone who doesn’t commit such crime of taking absences. Well, I have friends who belong to such category. hehe. I have nothing against them. By the way, I read somewhere online an icon saying: normal people worries me – I agree to that.